Loving ’til the end(message in a bottle POV)

Uwaa! Haha! Ngawa kung ngawa. .:)

Been long that I’m gone but I’ve got an absolute interesting topic after I got out of my cave. .Haha!

Who is Nicholas Sparks?

Known to be an exceptional writer with exceptional masterpieces.

Honestly, I had never read any of his work since then. His books is quite expensive for me to afford it. Until three days ago, I just finished reading his work “Message in a Bottle” which I lend from a friend.

I know, and I really cried the whole last chapter of the book. Next morning I read the book and cried again. ? HAHAHA…

There’s a lot of reasons why the book made me cry. First, it made me cry for that tragic experience in love. I mean, why would it ever happen to Garrett? I’m frustrated, really. Then, he wants to be Theresa. And the worst of it, it is only on letter after that accident happened.

Second, the story is so realistic. The setting, the act, the lifestyle… In fact, I’ve watch and read that set-up already Its so normal but the twist is really exceptional. How can a man possess such love? For that thing, I cried because of a really amazing story. To the highest level talaga. And I really love Garrett. How I wish there’s more guys like him. Blessed with so much love and loyalty.

Third, I don’t want to lose a love one at the moment I read it. It’s so painful to bear that feeling. The way Gareth and Theresa felt. I guess most of us don’t want it either. Continue reading

define “ouch”

“Î NeVer Stop LoVing YOU, I JUSt StoP LetTiNg it ShoW”

Let’s define “ouch” daw.. Alam nyo ung feeling na, na  internal hemorrhage ng dahil lang sa lintik na pagmamahal na yan? Hindi naman literal na internal hemorrhage, yong parang wala kang sugat pero masakit. At yong feeling na you’re not empty but broken. Hindi naman natin minsan aakalain na tayo ay magmamahal…misan sa maling panahon at kadalasan sa maling tao pa, hindi mo namamalayan ay tinamaan ka na pala ng pana ni kupido. Sinasabi ng iba na pag tinamaan ka ng pana ni kupido ay in-love ka na, hindi ba nila naisip kung gaano kasakit ang panang yon pag sa puso mo tumagos.Ang magmahat sa maling tao ay parang ligaw na bala, hindi sayo nakalaan pero ikaw ang tinamaan,masakit yon for reel or for real.

Maybe, I’ve been in love at the age of 17..and have been hurt at the same time. It’s not love at first sight since i believe na love is blind. Namalayan ko na lang hinahangaan ko na sya, pinapangarap, pinapantasya. And everytime he does small sweet gestures, my heart gave in…Can’t blame me, I’m a sucker for happy endings and sweet stuffs. Syempre pag concern sya sakin kinikilig naman ako, still keep my self believing na my ” M.U.” kami….Hindi naman masama ang mangarap atleast hindi nya alam. Pwede ko syang pagnasaan sa isip ko, imagine-nin na mahal din nya ako…And the day comes that i don’t expect is magtapat sya ng feelings nya sakin. Shock is really an understatement. Goodness! I’m just like a sister to him aside sa fact na may lihim akong pagtingin sa kanya. We were texting that night when he suddenly blurted na he has a feelings for me…more than just a friend or a sister. What I did is text him back telling na “baka infatuation lang yan, kuya.no deep feelings involved”. At nag reply sya na, hindi raw kasi palagi kong nakukuha ang atensyon nya at blaah…blaah..hindi ko na naintindihan ang ibang sinasabi nya kasi nininerbyos na ako kahit sa text lang.. Yet still, dinedeny ko pa rin yon at dinidiscourage ko pa rin sya at masakit para sakin yon…What hurts more is my girlfriend lang naman sya kaya pinili ko nalang magpretend na wala akong nararamdaman sa kanya.. And to thinks na wala akong laban sa babaeng yon, it leaves me helpless and pathetic at ayokong magmukhang kawawa dahil nagpadala ako sa emosyon ko.

Nagiging aloof na sya sakin pagkatapos ng pangyayaring yon. Ang hindi nya alam, gusto ko syang sisihin kung bakit ako nasasaktan. Para na nga akong tanga minsan sa kaka-forward ng mga quotations sa kanya na sana kahit isang reply man lang sana mag-respond sya pero wala. At kahit sabihin ko pang hindi na ko magti-text sa kanya ay di ka pa rin sya matiis at sisisihin ko naman ang sarili ko dahil nagpakatanga ako. Gusto ko na sanang maka-move on dahil dumarami na ang mga inferiorities at insecurities ko sa sarili, hindi ko naman magawa. Makita ko lang sya, bumabalik na yong feelings ko.

I just want to feel in love again…At kung ako ang papapiliin ay gusto kong sa kanya pa rin…i can’t give up this feeling even it causes me too much heartbreak and lots of broken pieces of hopes and happiness… I’ll just savor the moment na magkasama kami atleast my maganda naman akong alaala sa lalaking nagparamdam sakin na masarap pala ang magmahal at may minamahal. Kamartiran man  yon o katangan, bahala na… As long as hindi nya alam at wala akong may nasisirang relasyon ay sasarilihin ko nalang yong dalamhati ng puso ko tutal masyado pa akong bata para magpaapekto sa tawag ng pag-ibig. He always has a big part of my heart for always…:[

“There is always this boy and no matter he do, I just can’t stop loving him”